"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." ~ Isaiah 40:31I sure hope so. Waiting on the Lord is a whole lot harder than it sounds in this verse. I think the waiting tires me out more than action would... But I don't really know.
I'm on sabbatical from Grandma's house. I was living with her in Ohio this summer, but I came back to Indiana for a break. She had knee surgery and is recovering in a nursing home now. I don't know if I'll go back or not. I've been praying, but all I hear from God so far is "Wait." Well, that's easy for him to say - not everyone is asking Him what the plan is! However, I'm waiting...
In the mean time, I'm enjoying my family in Indiana. I'm working with my dad doing trim carpentry. I never would have thought 3 years ago that I would want to do baseboard, but I actually enjoy it now - or maybe it's just professional pride in my work. Whatever it is, I don't dread my job. I suppose that's one area where waiting has paid off.
The summer classes also keep me busy. Well, one of them does. The other two have been neglected... So I should work on that soon. Waiting will probably not aid me in that department.
It's strange to feel so much in transition. I usually feel somewhat transient because of my college student status. Home is never fully home - either here in Indiana or at Dordt in Iowa although I love both places. This summer and next semester are even more in flux because of living in Ohio, going on vacation to Canada, weddings 3 weekends in a row, and then flying to Nicaragua for the semester. I'm actually very glad I can come to Indiana for a while now. I was wondering if all the time away would make me really homesick...
While I'm here, I'm taking it one day at a time. I'm learning to rely on God more. A lot of times I think I can charge into a situation, make a list, set my goals, and work like a madwoman until everything I want has been accomplished. Maybe this summer is teaching me I can't. Maybe you really can teach an old dog new tricks - or God can, that is.
I don't know the plan. I don't really have one. I have options, but no definite choice. I appreciated our devotions this morning from Jeremiah 6:16,
"This is what the LORD says:
"Stand at the crossroads and look;ask for the ancient paths,
ask where the good way is, and walk in it,
and you will find rest for your souls."
I'm standing at the crossroads, asking God which way the good way is. Until He moves me, I'm just waiting.
