Blogging on Cloudy Days

I was semi-productive tonight. I finished my parts for a group presentation. I read an article or two. I did some other stuff... can't remember because I was watching youtube clips as well. Anyways, the point is... After feeling like I got something done, I couldn't do any more. Yup, hit a wall. So I've been clicking through tabs, trying to convince myself to read the 46 page article I'm supposed to read, but getting distracted by all sorts of other things.

Blogs, in fact. I was stalking my friend Dannii's blog (even though she was on the couch next to me), and then I started clicking around on Tumblr. There are a lot of blogs out there to look at.

I've been thinking about my blog lately.

I feel like I have nothing to write. But I should write something, otherwise what's the point of having a blog? But it's not like I'm followed by anyone I don't know, really.

Most blogs have themes. The ones with followers, at least. But that would mean I have to pick a theme. And that would mean I would have to want some huge cyber following instead of just people I know checking in once in a while. I only follow people I know. Why should I expect anything different from people on my blog?

So there it is. Part of who I am, I guess. 23 years old and still figuring it out. I've moved again, and I'm realizing again that I still don't know what I want to be. This is related because if I made a topical blog, what would it be? I don't have an answer to that. There's not much really defining about me that I would choose to write about regularly.

I guess that's why I named this thing Adventurage. So I can write about all my life's adventures - the big and the small. And it's okay that not many people read it.

This post probably isn't really about blogging at all. It's about an existential crisis or something. Feeling like I don't know who I am or what is really important to me. Feeling like a lame person when someone asks what I like to do for fun and I don't have any ready answers. Sigh. I think I should just go to bed...

Oh, don't get too worried. I know the sun will shine again (it hasn't been here in the Lower Mainland lately). I also know that the sun is still there - even when I can't see it. Kind of like God. I guess it will all be well again...Even if I forget that on the cloudy days.